My Life is More Boring than Your Life

Today marks one month since I found out about The Impending Baby. Friday was a month, week-wise, but today is a month, date-wise.

He's still married. She's still pregnant. I'm still aching. My heart still hurts when I think about it. I find myself desperately wanting to look for distractions, but they wouldn't be healthy, productive distractions so I've avoided trying too hard.

All I want is to be busy. I want to work, and go to the girls' soccer practices and games, I want to babysit, I want to volunteer, I want to have drinks (a lot of them) and meals with my friends (which, unfortunately, is becoming somewhat of an issue due to financial constraints). I want any and all of my time filled as much as possible so as to avoid having any down time, during which I would inevitably wallow. Given the fact that I'm as busy as I am and still manage to wallow as much as I have been, I think this is best for me - the busy-ness, I mean.

It's getting a little easier, but just a very little.

Fo rizzle, LJ *refuses* to load on my laptop this morning. Since I can't finish my story, I'm going to work early so I can get off early. Sorry for the delay ... I'll shoot for the weekend to finish it.

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I thought I would spend this last 30 minutes writing ... I have a lot of non-work-related stuff to get off my chest this morning. Instead I've spent it alternately watching my laptop not boot up and the cars going thru the Sbux drive-thru. Not sure what's going on with the laptop but it's got me on the verge of screaming and throwing it on the floor. But since that would be non-productive and somewhat dramatic, I will refrain. Maybe tomorrow I can write about my sorrows.

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My date from last week turned out to be a psycho. Stay tuned ... Details to come!

• 10:01 I was gonna try to find an antenna weenie for Harvey but he has no antenna! Boo! #

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• 11:10 Places to go, things to do ... Gotta put gas in Harvey ALREADY. He's only at 1/2 but I figure now's as good a time as any! #
• 18:36 Harvey is presently at 408 miles ... Of course I volunteered to do the dinner run to the furthest possible dining establishment! #

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• 11:25 Zoom zoom ... I'm gonna have to be super-careful not to get a speeding ticket while driving Harvey ... He likes acceleration! #

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• 10:46 OMG I just had the most overwhelming craving for an Egg McMuffin... #
• 12:09 Before I spend the money ... Does anyone have P!nk's Funhouse album that they could burn a copy of for me? #
• 18:56 Quote of the Day: "Sad to say but guys will never just fall out of the sky and into our hands." #
• 22:15 Syenna was humming along with the Enzyte commercial earlier. Mildly disturbing, in my opinion. I think my sister agrees. #
• 22:16 I wish y'all could see this sweet little baby boy I'm cuddling right now ... He's soooo cute! #

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• 14:35 Drove a Corolla...LOVE IT...This guy wants to sell me this car & he's trying HARD & I'm kinda freaking out! This is too grown-up for me! #
• 15:03 OMG ... I might be buying a Corolla today! I kinda wish it wasn't silver, though. #
• 16:06 OMG! I just bought a car! OMG! #
• 23:36 @alivicwil It was my first choice all along - I just didn't expect to be able to afford it! #

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• 12:12 Kinda hyper today...Not sure why, since I'm not caffeinated yet, but I guess I shouldn't complain! :-) #

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